Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Redemption

My son is a good man

He is finding his own way

He seeks justice

He saved a little girl



He is my firstborn son

My favorite son

My only son

I love him more than words can say


When he was small I worried so much

About all life’s pitfalls that snare the young

Be careful I said

Watch out I said

Don’t do that I said


He thought I thought he was lacking

He thought I thought he was stupid

He thought I didn’t love him

He was angry


I thought I was being a good mom

Pointing out all the things that could possibly go wrong

I didn’t understand why he resisted so

I didn’t understand why we clashed so

I didn’t understand what I was doing to his spirit


Until he told me

Until he forgave me

Until he let his anger go


Thank God


Now he knows how much I love him

And I know how much he loves me


Thank God


I still worry – I can’t help it

About all life’s pitfalls that snare the young

You will look into it I say

You will figure it out I say

You will do the right thing I say

I love you I say


I love you he says


Thank God

I don’t want to live like a lowlife

I want to keep my doors open

Knowing friends and family can always enter

Knowing honesty and integrity are abundant

Knowing no-one who enters would steal

Knowing life is good


I don’t want to live like a lowlife

I want to trust

I want to believe


I don’t want to live like a lowlife

Locking doors

Hiding things

Knowing life is bad


I don’t want to live like a lowlife


So I won’t

FACTOR 8

My heart is broken
And I have no factor 8

I fake it pretty well

I get out of bed
(Sometimes)

I go to work
(Sometimes)

No one sees the blood

Drip

Drip

Drip

My heart is broken
And I have no factor 8

I keep waiting for the pain to stop - It doesn’t
I keep waiting for the tears to stop - They don’t
I wonder if I will just fade away
While I am wallowing and waiting

Wallowing and waiting and waning away
Wallowing and waiting and waning away

When I was young I was such a fighter
I stood up for what I thought was right
I didn’t back down
I never cried
I had such passion and conviction

Now I have no passion

Now I have no conviction

I know what I am supposed to do

Eat right
Exercise
Think positive

Positive people live longer

Who wants to live longer?

Not me